Tonight, I'm remembering a picture that Jason had taken on his phone. It was just a few minutes (or maybe even just 1 or 2?) after Elliana had been born.
She was laying in one of those newborn 'beds' - I don't even remember what you call them.
She was naked as a jay bird, her eyes were open, and she looked... startled. Like, 'who are you people, and where is my mom???'
She looked startled. Her tiny little 15-and-a-half-inch frame was stretched out, and it looked like every muscle in her body was tense.
Somehow, her little preemie body reminded me of Seth.
She looked strong.
I remember Jason coming over to me, showing me her picture, and telling me that they'd asked him to step away while they worked on her.
Oh, how I wish she'd been strong enough to live.
I just miss her.
In reading this I imagine Elliana looking SO pissed, like she wanted to throw a shoe or something ;)
ReplyDeleteShe's an amazing little girl.
Missing her with you, and sharing your pain.
YES!! Exactly! Like she wanted to throw a shoe! She gets it from her mom. :-)
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