Jason and I right before the ultrasound today. Jason doing his best 'sympathy belly'.
The Crappiest Pregnant Moment
More heartburn. BUT - Zantac and Tums are my new best friends.
The Happiest Pregnant Moment
'Playing' with her - she really does respond to my touch when she kicks. It's so sweet - and it's a way to actually interact with her. :-)
The Cravings
None. Absolutely nothing. Nothing sounds good, nothing tastes right. It sucks!
The Little Princess
She's a little camera-shy. Every time we've tried to see a 3D/4D image of her face (compliments of our compassionate ultrasound techs), she's got her hand in her mouth, her arm wrapped around her face, or her leg/foot stretched all the way up above her head.
The Big Sibs
Levi gets such joy out of feeling her kick. His face lights up - makes my face light up.
After we got home from the appointment today, Elijah asked me if Elliana was doing better. My heart just sank - I want so much to be able to tell him 'YES!' But all I could say was that she's growing, she's getting bigger, but the doctor doesn't think she's doing any better. His response: That doctor is dumb. He doesn't know what he's talking about.' Although I'm not wild about him calling anyone 'dumb', I love how protective he is of Elliana - he loves her.
Lbs: Pre-preggo weight +1. At this rate, I might be UNDER my pre-pregnancy weight as soon as Elliana is born. Guess I won't complain about that. :-)
Upcoming Events and Appointments This Week
Some friends have offered to keep our kids for the day on Saturday so Jason and I can have some time to talk (uninterrupted) about our birth plan, and maybe even pick out an outfit to bring Elliana home in. If we get to bring her home. It's always been so special to pick out outfits to bring our babies home in. Picking out an outfit for Elliana to come home in... it will be so hard. But we need to. We need to hope that she'll live long enough to come home.
We've already had the appointment with the maternal fetal specialist - it was today. I think I'm just going to have to summarize it for tonight - I'd like to write more about each of these things, but I think I can't do it tonight. More concerns today - a few new ones.
Increased fluid around her brain.
They suspect a cleft
palate.
There is a loose membrane. It's supposed to be attached to the uterine wall, but
it's just floating. This could either be part of how the pregnancy has developed
because of the genetic issues, OR it could mean fluid is slowly leaking. Which
could last for weeks without my even noticing it, or it could result in preterm
labor.
And, lastly, increased amniotic fluid. Wasn't anticipating
THAT. I was afraid there would be decreased fluid. Increased fluid means that her kidneys are working well, but swallowing reflex and/or breathing
may not be developing well.
All of these concerns are 'wait and see' kinds of things. The preterm labor possibility scares me a little. The other things - we just won't know for sure until she gets here. The doctor said we'll know pretty soon after she's born how well her lungs are working. And he's referred us to talk with a neonatalogist to help us have a better idea of what to expect when she's born.
I may write more in the next day or 2. I'm just drained tonight.
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